My verse....

"Finally, brethren, whatever things are true, whatever things are noble, whatever things are just, whatever things are pure, whatever things are lovely, whatever things are of good report, if there is any virtue and if there is anything praiseworthy—meditate on these things. The things which you learned and received and heard and saw in me, these do, and the God of peace will be with you.
But I rejoiced in the Lord greatly that now at last your care for me has flourished again; though you surely did care, but you lacked opportunity. Not that I speak in regard to need, for I have learned in whatever state I am, to be content: I know how to be abased, and I know how to abound. Everywhere and in all things I have learned both to be full and to be hungry, both to abound and to suffer need. I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me." (Phillipians 4: 8-13)

Man I love this verse! it fills me with joy every time! It's a phrase I read every time the world's craziness attacks me and pulls me inside. I know it's long but it speaks so much.

Now, just because I may be now at a point that warrants this verse does not mean that I have not meditated on it many times before. This is one of the strong verses that made me seriously reevaluate my relationship with God. Not only does it clearly state our dependence on Him, but it states how my own character should be within the relationship. I have always, always been told that my greatest strength and my greatest weakness is my ability to care and trust too much. I have faltered many times with placing worldly care and trust above Him as many do, and I write this in order for me to continue opening this new chapter in my life.

With every terrible and awesome moment my faith strengthens as I really try to put my full trust in Him and know that I am loved. It's ridiculously hard for me sometimes. It really is ridiculous because I can easily forgive someone but if someone else forgives me, I still find it hard to forgive myself. This chapter is very new for me because I didn't grow up with strong Christian values. I came from a very strict and structured right vs wrong mentality. I was close-minded to the sense that I was ignorant to the lures of the world and religion was just something I was supposed to know. The base of my knowledge was God is good and Jesus died for our sins. The end. I never delved any deeper than that until now. I love where I am now and I hope and pray that never changes. Things in my life may change that I will have to deal with but my relationship with Him won't. I will falter, many times, but He is my security blanket that I can crawl back to. I know I'll be fine and can take on whatever the world throws at me as long I care and trust Him......oh! and remember my verse....